Friday, December 18, 2015

Are you here?

Since your birthday a year ago, I had to do many things without you. Each time I do them, I asked - Are you here? 

One significant event which you would have been so proud of is getting our house keys. I collected the keys by myself. I went to our new house. I stepped in and thought to myself - Are you here?

I inspected the house with my friend. I made decisions to install the house fittings. I made decisions on the colours of the curtain. This was your job. I wondered if you were with me when I made those decisions. I whispered so the contractors won't hear me - Are you here? 

I learnt pole dancing because I was inspired by our youngest sister. I got so many bruises doing it, falling awkwardly on the floor and banging myself against the pole. I met a new friend. Her name is Lisa. I was surprised. I wondered to myself - Are you here?

I registered myself in a gym to do Power Plate for my back. It is high time I do something about it again. I went to True Fitness at my area. You went to True Fitness too in your area. How coincidence we have the same gym in our area. I thought again - Are you here?

I drive myself back every month. I stop occasionally at rest areas for pee break. I feel sleepy sometimes. The seat beside me is empty. I looked at the seat and spoke - Are you here?

Happy Birthday, Ti. You are 31 today. 

Are you here?