It is 3 months tomorrow.
It is 3 months I have thought of all of you everyday.
It is 3 months that I don't talk of you to anyone.
Ti, I walked your steps 2 days ago to collect your scroll.
It was the 2nd most difficult walk I did. The first was when I retraced your steps in the airport to collect you back.
As they announced your name to receive your scroll, I felt a lump in my throat.
But I walked.
I proudly took your scroll.
The Masters' certification you worked so hard for.
The Masters' certification that caused you stress.
The Masters' certification that you promised me a Magnum Goldbar when you got an A in your accounts.
I looked at your scroll.
I felt that familiar lump.
But I smiled for the camera.
No one should see me tear.
I will not let outsiders give me the pitiful look.
I am taking my exams now.
You promised me you will let me stay at your place so I will study, and not sleep.
Guess what, I have been sleeping because you know me well enough that studying will make me sleep.
It is okay. I will manage. I have to.
Ing, it was your birthday 4 days ago.
That day, I ran 21km.
Before I started my run, I said - Ing, give me some good luck to run.
I finished it, and had no cramps.
Yesterday, your colleague told me they named an award after you - Best PhD Presenter Jacyln Ng Shi Ing Award.
The award will commence next year.
The CALL community will always remember you.
You did well, Ing.
You left an impact in your field.
What I remember of you is you kicking me off the bed while asleep during our teenage days.
It has been 3 months since 3 of you left.
It has been 3 months of gap you left in our hearts.
Time flies.
